I Just Want To Bleed

I Can't Tell You From The Drugs

2006-01-09T19:25:00Z

Living loving and hanging out with good friends. Tegan is amazing.!

Sometimes. My friends are creeps.

2005-12-19T08:11:50Z

I really wish Smashley would call me back.

My other friends. Just C-R-E-E-P-S

1, 2, 3, 4, I Want More

2005-12-14T09:00:29Z

Life Is Good. My daughter is amazing.

Just got back from San Jose. Tegan was sick and being bratty.. but I know now why she was... She had to puke and wasn't feeling good.. Now she's sleeping like the angel she is.

Too tired to update... Some pictures. More later.

More that 2 hours of sleep the next week... Hope so... Last week was hell

justeaimezmoi @ 2005-11-29T11:20:00

2005-12-03T22:59:37Z

JUST A FEW

2005-11-28T02:59:23Z

justeaimezmoi @ 2005-10-24T22:44:00

2005-10-25T05:55:30Z

Doggies play dress up. My sisters dog and my love make such cute ladybugs!

So. I'm about to pop. I'm so over being pregnant you have no idea. It's been a hectic ride but in less that 10 days I'm going to be a mommy. I really have realized a lot and figured out who my true friends were throughout this whole time. I'm glad though. I don't have any problem writing off shitty ass friends. <3

Tomorrow = ultra sound. I'm due Nov 4th but the doctor thinks that I'm "measuring small" and they think I might have an infection of the aminotic fluid? so if I do.. they'll induce labor. Which I would not be opposed to. HA. Nigel is gone going to FL till the 28th. I wonder if I'll have the baby when he's gone. Hmmm. I am in a good mood. But I'm tired and I miss my love.

HE BELONGS TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEe

2005-10-25T05:38:21Z

Meet the love of my life. I've had him for awhile. Check out his super cool baby sock and sling we had to make him because the fuckface owners that had him before let him run and get cement/plaster/whatever the fuck it was on his paw and didn't wash it off fully and he would run with only 3 legs... anyways my sisters fiance cut it out and we found that having it on there for so long caused his pad and nail to grow wierd... but its healing and he is better cos he has a momma who loveeeees him <3

justeaimezmoi @ 2005-09-25T01:37:00

2005-09-25T08:52:57Z

Sissy and Momma

I wish I could sleep. Bah. I sleep at odd times. It's so wierd being pregnant.. But honestly its the most amazing expierence and everytime she kicks or moves... or when she has the hiccups I want to cry because I love her so much and its a feeling I can't describe. She's strong enough and I can sometimes tell which part of her is moving... My favorite is when she pushes her little tushy up or streches and you can feel her little feet or her knees.. I Love it. She's not even here yet and she has my unconditional love. Aww. I've had a relaxed weekend getting away! I Love it. We got her crib and we aren't going to paint it.. I'm making her comforter set and such. I hate how everything for girls is pale pink. We won't be able to afford a place for her to have her own room for awhile... So we decided that her bedset would match mine so Red, Black and White it is. And shut up smashley. babies LOVE skulls.

Miss Brie' has a date this week. What bitches?

BTW I'm going crazy I keep hearing this beep beep beeping and I can't figure out what it is.

Just kidding it was a text from Nigel. geez I'm a dumbass. usually it plays a song but I forgot I put it on beeping.

I have a doctor appointment next Thursday. I have to get a manicure and a pedicure. I missed my appointment and my nail lady freaked out and called me from her cellphone because I didn't answer... WIERD. I'm changing places haha.

Bored. Pictures.

2005-09-25T08:35:06Z

Whit is my love

Twice

Sissy

Mommy's Rule!

2005-09-23T08:29:32Z

So Today.. well yesterday was my 20th birthday. I had the best day a girl could ask for...

Matthew(bro) Cameron(cousin) Christopher(bro)

Love my sisters

Daddy and Aunt

I realized.. This whole experience has made me stronger than I ever thought I could be. I love the little girl that lives in my tummy and she will be here in 41 days. It's amazing.. I love the way she kicks and I can feel her moving.

My sister and her fiance are annoying me. They keep yelling at me but HI I'm upstairs and I can't hear you stoopids.

Lots of shopping went on yesterday and today. I got the cutest jackets from old navy. A yellowish orange one... a tan and gold one... and Tegan got an adorable denim skirt with red stitching. I bought it because it will go perfectly with the mommy onesie that Nigel bought me. I got some really cute loooooooooooong tanks and long sleeved shirts. What what.

Baby.. I'm still in love.

Sha La La La

2005-08-05T07:43:22Z

I'm back from OC. Bored already.... My back is killing me. I can't even walk. I'm looking for an apartment because I decided that I am so not staying in sac after I have the baby. I miss my friends down there.. I miss the beach I miss it all. And sac really just has the disgusting investation of life here.. its quite sad. I really am serious. HAHA. Anyways. That is all.

I'm Sorry I Don't Love You Anymore.. It's No Longer Your Turn

2005-07-23T00:15:44Z

I love these girls.. Purest little hearts ever <333

You Stick Around... And I Just Don't Know Why

2005-07-23T00:06:38Z

I'm 6 months and am so excited. The baby kicks all the time. I love my life. I hate the drama and the lies.. But I just cut all that bullshit out of my life.. and finally I can breathe easier. I'm not the problem.. It's you fool ;) haha.

Tonight = Going out. Momma's have fun too.

justeaimezmoi @ 2005-06-29T19:21:00

2005-06-30T02:19:23Z

Me and My cousin Lindsey

Little brother Matthew... Cousin Adam, Little brother Christopher

You Make Me Feel Like Everything's Gonna Be Okay

2005-06-30T02:16:13Z

This has been a crazy weekend/week. On Friday I found out it was a girl... My nana called me and told me that that she was so excited and loved me. On saturday we get a call to go to the hospital because nana had a stroke and the paramedics were trying to revive her.. Well... we went to the hospital and my nana was put on life support and kept at Folsom ER for 2 days then transfered to Kaiser Roseville.. Where they told us that she had a 1% chance of waking up, and would have to live in a home wouldnt be able to walk or talk.. would pretty much be a vegetable.... and the one thing my nana told all of us was that she wanted NO MACHINES.. Just for us to let her go. So... we took her off of life support last night and she's still with us.. But looking at her.. You know all that's here is her body. And she's already gone.. :( I'm so sad but its okay because I know she's in a better place... So we are naming the baby Ellee after my nana's name Ellen.

Baby Ellee. <33333

HOLLER

2005-06-27T02:38:37Z

IF YOU WANT TO SEE THE PICTURE OF THE BABY LOG IN.. ITS ON MY FRIENDS ONLY BITCHES

Help Me Brand

2005-06-08T21:25:03Z

I went to the doctors today.. I have a heart murmur and I'm a high risk pregnancy. How sad is that? Blah. I didn't find out what it was because now I have to get a special doctor or something STOOPID.

I'm hanging out with my cousin cameron and he keeps calling me "brand" haha. He can't say my name right! Lol. Sooo cute. He keeps talking to my baby too. Its the sweetest thing ever.

FUCK FUCK FUCK. Fuck love

2005-05-28T02:53:31Z

Come and go now as you please
Your actions write the melodies
To the songs that we sing
And you just sing

And I finally found that life goes on without you
And my world still turns when you're not around

Is this the way you want it?
Is this the way it has to be?
Sitting here beside you
But my heart's lost in New Orleans
Dreams come clever
Hearts now severed
Difference of forever
And I am lost there

Come and go now as you please
Your actions write the melodies
To the songs that we sing
And you just sing along out loud

Your Tugging At My Heart Strings

2005-05-28T01:26:48Z

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it

So. I'm watching my cousin and my aunt's boyfriend's son. He seriously is the cutest thing I have ever seen. If he was older I'd totally marry him. He's only 6 and he's in the kitchen right now writing me love letters because a couple weeks ago when we went to the lake on the boat I told him he was adorable and if he was 20 years older I'd marry him. How cute is that? Preg playa what ;) haha.

I'm going to Long Beach tomorrow. Woot. Watch out. I'm excited. I get butterflies. I hung out with pirate last night. AWESOME! I am finding a new apartment tomorrow and I'm stoked!!!!!!!! Hmmmm... nothing else to report.

ATTENTION: Smashley I'm wearing the dress you bought me and it's hot ;0)

The Lie Is Getting Old

2005-05-25T08:29:52Z

Well. I am incredibly tired. But we're takin' pictas. Smashley is watching my sisters old Riki Lake show and so I have to wait untill she's done. So I am almost done with my medical insurance.. EXCEPT I went to the wrong window and was so tired of waiting for my medical card that I peaced out and left... I don't think I was supposed to do that. But whatever fuck it. I have an appointment on Thursday. Family is so important and I'm so lucky to have such an awesome family... I love my little sister so much. I honestly want to cry when I think of how old she's getting and how much she's changing... Meg I love you little sissy!

Shopping was done. MATERNITY shopping. Wierd how creepy is it to say that? But no really I went with Smashley and my aunt and they got me some cute shirt/dresses. Dresses now.. Shirts later when my bellay gets mega big. More shopping will be done tomorrow. I'm having lunch with my Nana and my aunt and more shopping will be done. Nigel and I shall hangout tomorrow.

Bitches be talking shit. People are just jealous I'm an incredibly cute prego. Get the fuck over it.

My nails are lonnng.. And so is my hair. I'll post pictures later.

Same Fire New Passion Old Flame

2005-05-20T05:38:10Z

Well well well. I am sitting here in SJ being bored as hell! I live such a healthy life now. GEEZ. This sucks. ahha. Oh well it will be worth it. Oh and for the record so I don't have to hear people wondering. YES. I am having a baby. I am due Oct. 29th. But. Nigel really wants the baby to have a halloween birthday so we decided to have a scheduled labor. haha. YES. Nigel's mommy already got us a crib and I am looking for a new apartment so I can move out of my long beach one. I am NOT going to have any roommates. FUCK THAT shit.

Who's going to the HIMSA show in sf? Pssst. Angel and Smashley this is where you post and tell me we are all going together because you love my prego ass! Don't make me get psycho pregnant crazy ahha! <3333

I want to hangout with Smelly Shelly so stop being a cunt and hangout with me you bitch! RYAN I WANT TO SEE YOU TOO MOTHA FUCKA. Lets go shopping for some SPANDEX pants! hahaha.

Oh and I need ideas for girl names. I want a boy because girls are evil when they get older. But I totally think its going to be a girl because I REALLY REALLY want a boy. So does Nigel. Hmmmm... We already know what we would name it if it was a boy. Eligh or Eligha whatever on the spelling. It was going to be London but Nigel changed his mind..... And with that. I'm out.

Mmmmmhmmmmm

2005-05-16T02:32:35Z

So... I decided against what I thought I was going to do... and suprisingly everything is working out nicely. I'm healthy happy. And incredibly excited. yes I'm young.. Yes it will be hard but basically you can fuck off. K thanks.

P.S. I won't wear those elastic gross pants.

String Cheese Is The ISH!

2005-05-10T22:45:20Z

I'm sick and my throat hurts.

I miss my bf.

Fuck Bars

2005-05-01T17:28:09Z

So I'm over going to bars. I was so sick thing morning. BLAH!

I'll See You In A Second.. A Dirty Little Minute

2005-04-29T02:12:12Z

I'm addicted to wine and cigarettes. Oh and strawberries. The finer things in life.